Examine Your Own Life

Newton Basumatari csc

Readings: 1 Kgs 18:41-46; Mt 5: 20-26

It is easy to say to someone who is far, “I forgive you.” But it is challenging to forgive the one who has hurt us personally. For instance, when someone cheats or betrays us, and stands against our will, it is difficult to forgive him/her.

Even as we may say it in words, still, we may hold back the pain deep down in our hearts. But whenever I have sinned and return to God, he does not keep any record of it for he forgives me when I return to him with a repentant heart.

In the gospel reading, we hear Jesus telling his disciples about righteousness and reconciliation. Often, I tend to be like the Scribes and Pharisees, a righteous person in front of others following the rules of the community without fail.

But to reconcile with others is challenging as it needs courage and acceptance of our own mistakes,
and an ability to understand the feelings of others. I have come across many people who find it difficult to forgive, but externally sound righteous.

When I do not have the heart to reconcile with others, then what is the use of being a righteous religious? Through these readings, I am invited to examine my own life and remember those who have hurt me and pray for them. I ask the Lord to grant me the courage to forgive others so that I may have the heart to reconcile with them.